Archive for January, 2008

It appears that no matter what happens in this world, we all have the opportunity to look at it as wonderful or terrible.  Now there are many who will remain unnamed, who find the worst in each day, who moan and groan their way through life and then blame it on everyone but themselves, we all have some of those in our lives.  Then there are those that see sunshine everywhere no matter what happens to them, even when they have bad medical news they take the well, I knew something was not right, now I know what it is and I will deal with it.  Then there are the rest of us who fluctuate between the two, even on 40 mgs of Paxil a day.  I fight depression and panic attacks every day of my life, as does my lovely daughter, but those looking on ……..they would never know that about us.  Even members of our own family are blissfully unaware, have no time to notice or care, which is fine, we have each other.  We understand each other like no one else ever could, we have a bond that is stronger than death.  When we need help, we come to each other, the three of us: T, L, me.  We have a special closeness, an ability not everyone has to empathize and calm each other.
I have just spent a week in Georgia with T and the family and how wonderful it has been.  The girls are gorgeous, growing like weeds, both knitting now, Em is REALLY good and interested.  She is very artistic and talented, as well as plaing basketball, Josh went up and played the Wii with them, they had a blast!!  The girls were sad when he left and Liv said, “J-osh-u-a is really fun!!”  She wanted to sleep with him, bless her heart, to make sure he did not leave! 
Rog had some home brewed beer the guys enjoyed while T and I went to AC Moore and got pizza, 4 liters had disappeared by the time we got back with the pizza and they were all ready to eat, ha ha!!  I think if more had been cold, more would have disappeared!  T gave the home brew set to Rog for Christmas, and he made wooden pens for everyone.  He had to teach us each to make pens on the lathe, even Em, and we all got to take one or more home, that was really cool, Kevin really got into the wood and the lathe as he just got us one but had never used it.  Now he knows how and is fired up about it, which is good, he needs a change from bullets! Altho, some guy atthe range gave him a huge bag of 30-30 brass to reload, he was very pleased with that, and he laid away all the lead bullets Uber’s had!  We have been cutting down trees that are too close to the house here in Florida, expecting another hurricane sooner or later, and no need to risk having to redo the house again! It looks beautiful, and only needs the master bath redone and the hurricane shutters put up.  Josh and Eric are taking really good care of it and keeping everything up.  Not to Papa’s standards, but they are doing a good job, just not his way!
On the other front, Mom and Dad are doing ok, Mom is back to AL and Dad has an appt Monday with his feeding tube Dr. it is giving him some problems.  It is snowing and very cold there, L goes to the OB-GYN for a second opinion on Monday as we arrive at her house,  we are taking Duncan to her.  He is around 11 or 12 now, and is ready to settle into an elderly gentleman’s routine and she wants him with her. She took the feral cat to the Humane Society after he had the nerve to pee on her in her sleep twice! She is ready for her old cat who is a love, still huge and still begging to be loved, they will be perfect together. so when we go up the road, it will be with a 70 lb hunk of muscle, Sweet Pea, who did amazingly well at the boarder’s and never even offered to bite anyone! Dolly in her crate, and Duncan in his crate, and Zorro in his cage on his table where he can see out and comment on the scenery!  What a family we will be! I need to route us to Danville, as we usually go through Tennessee to I 81– I am thinking this could be shorter or longer, we will see. 
Roanoke was on the weather channel today as it is in the snow band, and I had to laugh, and call Belle to tell her I was out on the beach in my bikini, what a lie!  She called me a dirty devil and laughed, knowing it was raining here.  She is struggling with the cold and I worry and pray for her daily, Cathy as well, I know not what is going on there.  Another tale for another day.  Who would have ever thought I would look forward to going back to Virginia?? I feel like a lost soul with no home.  I miss L and want to be with her.  I miss Belle and Cathy, and want to be with them, I dread returning to that cramped, out of date little house with the spirits that do their best to make me sad.  and Mad.  and Depressed.  and Mean like them.  I keep telling them to go away, but they do not, I think Gramps is gone now, we have not seen him lately since I informed him he was dead and needed to go to the light, he was driving Kevin crazy.  I think it is the women that are so oppressive.  Mother is gone and could care less, but Auntie still wants to rule with an iron hand, I cannot even throw out all the trahsy old junk that is wrapped in many layers of paper and plastic, without feeling the pressure change in the room.  I would like to spray paint the whole place white and bright, it is so dark and dreary, and covered in soot.  L wants to get a line of credit and have everything fixed starting with the electric and plumbing. I figure $25,000. should reroof, side, replumb, rewire, and maybe even but some paint.  What a mess.  L would like to add a second story as well, I cannot deal with all of that! She can do that when she transfers back from Danville and is a store manager.  Altho, She says she is not moving in there, but getting a nice apartment in Raleigh Court and letting Heath and Anastasia live there, if they want.  She has had enough depression and loves her new place with it’s light and windows everywhere,  and lots of room to work.  We have a ball at her place with al our toys, we dye, spin, knit and have our own hobby room! Actually, two of them!!  One is all tile, so we can hang up all the dyed fiber and let it dry there without worrying about dying the floors or walls! 
Laura’s New Haircut  Laura’s new haircut, cute, huh??
I shall give you none of my views today, I am sick of the political coverage, and everyone discussing nothing else on TV, politics and the writers strike. Is there no one in the world who can ad lib??  Must we all follw a script?  Is there nothing funny or touching to discuss without someone to write it for us? And I said no views today! I vote to turn off the TV and use our minds to entertain us! If we play a game with our kids, will the world come to an end?  Even if it is Texas Hold ’em——-Josh’s favorite, of course.  Maybe if we exercise our brians our butts will follow, what a novel idea!  Perhaps, even good eating and good health could come out of this writer’s strike, I vote that it never be settled, and this be the end of TV as we know it!!  Let it be real or not at all!!  Let’s all play canasta and crazy 8’s and have a conversation……………..ok, you do remember that, talking together and enjoying each other’s company? 

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Dolly BabyIris Civil War ShawlAs we were discussing the day and plans, ideas for this week coming up, DH (depending on the day: dear, darn, dratted, dirty husband) asked what’s selling on ETSY?  For many years he has taken a lot of pictures and I have sorta sorted them, then added them to boxes to be scrapped someday when I am sitting around.  He has always been very talented at this and made some awesome pics.

My reply to him was ‘prints’. Of what?  Strange things, I says.  Like two birds sitting on a barn roof, this seller has sold 23 of them, 8X8 for $10.00 each.  The look, honestly, the look as he calculated that, I had to crack up.  There is another seller, I says, selling 1″X1″ picture pendants for $4.50. That’s cheap he says. Well, I says, she has sold over 7000 of them this past year, I am watching that calculating in his pea brain! That, he says, requires a calculator, which means, you need to get busy and start making these tiny treasures!

So, there are two new streams of income in the first week of the year.  Did I tell you our goal this year was to add one stream of income per month?  I had to put a damper on all this creativity very quickly or we might reach our goal in the first week of the year, so I says—

Need a new lazer printer, gonna cost a lot! Need to get these prints to look professional, wanna guess the rely? Call Tana, she gets her prints done at Walgreens for 19 cents each, and doesn’t use up her own ink. Silly man, I do not want 4X6 pictures printed, I want PRINTS on archival paper with style to sell.  Then he turns in circles twice, I do think he is part dog–that is another story– and says where are all those barn pictures you took 2 years ago to make calendars? On a disc. Let’s start with them, he says, and just use elements of each one, in circles, or squares, or ovals, or………………….Does anyone see where this is going?  Sure enuf, the next words out his mouth, ‘you have a master’s degree in this computer stuff, you know what to do!!!’

I think I will call Laura and see if she wants to dye some mohair, or some wool when I get back, that I am familar with, this is scaring me, too much creativity, imagination, and far too many ideas for the 5th of January, 2008!!

I did put up some Google ad sense ads on my pages, hoping someone will click on them and that would be stream of income number 3! I think I shall work on expanding that stream through out the year.  I am sitting in the warm breezes of Pensacola, Fl and watching Zorro preen, Sweet Pea nap, Dolly study her Papa outside trying to figure out what he is doing–he is cutting down Josh’s tree, we will see how that goes over!  The sun is shining brightly and the cars are flying by on Fairfield, I had forgotten how noisy it is here! Dolly and I both nearly lost it early on Wednesday morning when the Blue Angels went practicing over the house.  I had not remembered how much I hated that!  They are not my friends, as they fly very early and make much noise, I know, I know, everyone loves the Blues,  let you in on a secret—-NOT everyone!  Hockey game tonight,  Josh will be making coffee, and I am going over to Joan’s and finish the jewelry I was making.  Maybe, maybe in the morning on my way to Tana’s.  I am so looking forward to seeing my girls and Rog! Very happy to head to their house.  I have my scrapper’s tote full to over flowing with goodies and ideas! I want to make Josh a new clock since he is not fond of the caffeine kitty!  I love it and will take it home with me, but he does not love it, so I will make him a life clock.  I have it all planned out, with little aircraft carriers, florida tags, flip flops, police badges,  baseballs, softballs, basketballs, footballs, skim boards, coffee cups, all that symbolize who and what he is!  I hope he likes this one,  Mr. Picky!!  I found Tana’s Christmas presents from 2 years ago that I had misplaced and been hunting ever since, in a gift bag, under the cardboard bottom, in the closet in the camper!  Do not have a clue why I did not look there first! Just like when Josh needed his birth certificate and paid $50. to have it sent asap for his state trooper application and it was in the box marked ‘ important documents’ in the camper.  Doesn’t everyone use their camper as a safe???

Now he says, they will send me to Miami, I do not want to go. So he is applying here at the ECSO and Pensacola Police.  Is it legal to hit a 26 year old male type son over the head with his own baseball bat?? How do you get him to understand there is more to life than playing ball? When will he realize that a job with health insurance comes before a flag football tourney?  How does a Mom get these things across without being a nagger?  WOOOOOT! That was close!  Almost a slip of the finger!!

Today I start my Civil War Shawl, using Jaggerspun Merino Top from Australia, which I got from www.sarahsyarns.com  and it will look like this when complete, except in a vivid purple! 

Civil War Shawl     Civil War Shawl Angel    tshawl3.jpg    Spin

I am very excited about starting the shawl, it is so large, we plan to work it as a KAL and it will take until June to complete as the last rows have over 1200 stitches per row! It is so beautiful! I have some socks on the needles, some cowls, finsihed Tana’s and it is beautiful, will get pics up before it is gifted!  I am making some now to sell on Etsy, and procrastinating about the marvelous mitts (http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=5154376 ) because I really want to make some other things, like socks! I have some great yarns we got when we went to Hillsborough, NC- Laura & I- and I am anxious to get thru with present knitting and hit it for myself!! Selfish, huh?  Sorry, I deserve it, I am special, I am in the positive zone and no one can make me come down, I will not let it in! I shall accomplish things this year that no one has imagined, I am tired of sitting around waiting for it to come to me, I shall go and get it……………………………..what is ‘it’?

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As the new year begins, what shall we do?  Shall we start a new shoppe, a new craft, a new idea?  Shall we build on what we have started?  Shall we make a business plan, ah ha! Now, that is where I think we should start this year and begin by forgiving all the sins perpertrated against us in the past, and start anew, personally, professionally, physically, mentally, emtionally and just plain let go and let God take over. 

I was watching Joel Osteen last night as I surfed the channels, and his message was to have a free and clean spirit and be blessed double.  I like that idea, do not dwell in the past.  Get over it and rise above it, he said!!  Greg Bishop, Command Master Chief of the USS Saratoga (CV-60) out of Mayport Fl in 1989-1990 passed those words on to his Ombudsmen at every meeting we had.  Rise above it, forget it, it is in the past.  Help those in need now and move on, never give up and never forget to be positive. You can do  and be anything you want bad enough, if you don’t suceed, according to Billy Joe Shaver, Try and Try again!!  No where in his music does it say to give up or to quit.  Build a dream and go after it.  I want to be able to go grocery shopping on the last day of the m month, buy anything I want to eat & not have to look at the price tag, use my debit card and not have to be concerned if it will ping! 

That, my dear fiends friends, is my idea of wealthy! Rich beyond compare. Able to have any food I want! This is not the end of 2007–it is the beginning of 2008.  Looking forward, being positive, creating new and beautiful items, sharing with my dear ones, learning something special to keep the old brain from deteriorating; keeping on spinning, knitting, cropping, beading, traveling, smiling, and using up all those lamp parts!

I am too tired, needing my meds refilled, and chilly tonight to enjoy anything, so I think I will knit this Tudora for Tana and go to bed early on the first day of the year. I have spent the last 3 hours trying to add an rss feed button to this blog so that I can send it out–and the widget has kicked my butt! But guess what??  Tomorrow I will be widget proof and kick it’s butt!

Then you can subscribe and read all my rantings, therfore; there will be no question as to where I stand.  I stand on the rock!!

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